It's been awhile

I actually got burned today. Just on my face though, so I'm not worried. It looks kinda... cute actually. Well, as much as cancer-causing sunburns can be "cute". I wouldn't actively pursue this look but it's better than, say, cystic acne.

The rest of me is becoming a toasty, golden brown.

It was a chilly 96 degrees in AZ, thanks to the monsoon season. Almost twenty degrees cooler than it was last time I swam so I was able to stay out longer.

I do so enjoy the summer, being half-naked and tan.

Was supposed to go out with Amy and Stef, but those plans fell through thanks to Amy's body. Wound up chilling with Tori instead which was just as wonderful. Every time I spend time with her it blows me away how much we've both changed and how, yet, we've still stayed close. Some people I can't possibly imagine saying goodbye to. I imagine she's one of those friends that will slip away for months or years at a time only to reappear out of nowhere, totally unexpected. And then we'll pick right back up where we left off...

I can't look at her without thinking of junior high and Stephanie Lawrence... trolling Superstition Springs mall on Friday nights, following random boys into Spencer's, getting picked up by Tori's mom in the Volvo. Everything revolved around those two girls; not even boys came before them. I hated junior high but I loved the time I spent with Tori and Stephanie. I was awkward and uncomfortable at that age but those two became my safe haven. Unconditional acceptance.

There is no desire in me to return to that stage in life but a lot of times I wish I could have that friendship back. It was so easy and consisted of nothing other than make-up, boys, clothes... and boys. We were too young to date but old enough to obey our hormones.

Life was simple; I miss that. Tori and I talk about her 17-month old baby boy and medical insurance and traffic on the 101 now.

Things have really changed, haven't they?

God, when did I become an adult?